Abandonment of blog

I won't be following up on the list, which bugs me. But I've lost all motivation. Maybe once I turn 18 I'll do a different list.

Regarding 15

15 would have been achieveable before I changed it.

One of the friends I hadn't talked to since June came to my door today and told me she was sorry for over reacting. 

I apologized too. 

She made my day actually. I was having an anxiety attack and started shaking and crying before hand. My depression got real bad for some reason today. 

And after talking to her I felt better.  

This time I will be a better friend than I was before. 

Changing number 15

After thinking about it, I have decided to change number 15 from being apologize to those I've hurt. I shouldn't dare try to have any communication with either of them. I've caused enough drama with the situation as is. (Best not to be a pest.)
So now number 15 is finger paint a scene from a favorite movie with family/friends.
(I already know what mine will be!)

Re thinking number 15

I'm not sure I should do number 15. I mean I've apologized to them so many times in the past and I think they would be kinda pissed to hear yet another apology. I haven't spoken to either of them since June, but I feel like I need to apologize for being a crappy friend, and let them know I truly am sorry. But of course I don't wish to be friends again, because hell no, and I now have trust issues. Not particularly because of them, but yeah.
(And I don't really know if I should, but I want to apologize to Roger for being such an awful friend, as well as girlfriend. I truly do hope he finds someone a hell of a lot better.)
(Seriously, no sarcasm intended in any of this.)

 I would really like to write to them, but I don't know if I should risk it. What if it backfires and I'm basically told to leave them alone, but with more colorful language. What then...? I could change number 15, or I could stop fearing it. Which actually brings me to number 8. Say yes to or do something that scares me. This could be part of two of the things on my list. Or should I keep them separate and do number 8 another time?

Let me know what you think I should do and why.
(Though nobody really reads the blog, I still want to ask the non existent readers. Perhaps in time people may actually read it. Maybe.)

On an unrelated note, the time it says I post is completely wrong and I am too lazy to change it every time.

What's next?

I've decided to focus on number 10 next.
10. Learn to cook at least one meal.

I thought about maybe trying fettuccine alfredo, but I've done that a few times. And I've just spent the past 7 minutes or so looking up recipes for beginners. I haven't found anything all that good, so I'll probably just ask my mother what I could start out with.
Wish me luck! (I'm gonna need it.)

Number 5, done!

Yesterday I completed number 5 on my list: dye my hair. I look forward to completing many more. I'm gonna make this a short blog entry because it's 2:20 am and I'm really tired.

So goodnight, and happy blogging.

Day 1: My 18 things list

I've made my own 18 things to do before I turn 18 list.

1. Play lazer tag with some friends or family
2. Have a water balloon fight
3. Make smores
4. Improve social skills
5. Dye my hair
6. Have a paintball fight
7. Host a movie marathon
8. Say yes to or do something that scares me
9. Have a paint fight
10. Learn to cook at least one meal
11. Dance in the rain
12. Complete a DIY project
13. Send a message in a bottle to sea
14. Say what I want to say for a day
15. Finger paint a scene from a favorite movie with family/friends
16. Make cookies and hand them out to random people
17. Write my phone number on a balloon, let it go, and see who calls

18. Have a conversation with a stranger

First post: The beginning of getting better

I started this blog to talk about overcoming depression, but I had to change it up because I haven't gone on that journey just yet.
I feel like starting this will help though.
Here's to the hope that things will get better. :)